It’s been said that some people cross our path for a lifetime, some for a season, some for a reason, and all leave footprints on our soul.
As we go through life, sooner or later we experience the loss of someone we love. A family member, a friend, a pet. The older we get, the longer the list becomes with the names of those who leave us as they journey to the next level of existence.
We, too, will be leaving here someday. It might be soon. It might be in the distant future. The question we should ask ourselves is, what footprints will we be leaving on the souls of our earthly companions?
A couple of weeks ago, I was unpacking boxes from our move to Colorado. I was focused on getting together my writing/ meditation room, setting up books, organizing my desk, hanging pictures, and placing various statues and gemstones. As I sat back and looked around me, I noticed so many items that had been gifted to me by my dear friend, Nancy. Even though we now lived miles, and states, apart- it felt as though she were there in the room with me. Her energy permeated the space in every direction, every corner.
The following morning, I excitedly grabbed my laptop, intending to email her my thoughts and feelings. That no matter the distance between us, we were close to each other in spirit, in heart, in soul. I could have called, but she was sick. She was in transition. She wasn’t up to speaking on the phone. I knew if I wrote, someone would read her the email.
I never wrote that email. Before I typed it out, I discovered she had left this earthly existence the previous night.
There are no regrets that she didn’t get the email. We had spoken numerous times over the years about how important our friendship was. We were soul-sisters. Best friends. We verbally expressed to each other the importance of our cherished friendship. We both understood the footprints we left on each other’s soul were embedded with gold and lighted with the love of that friendship.
I have been blessed with many great relationships. Some long lasting, some short lived. I have also had relationships where people plodded heavily across my soul, leaving deep, uneven grooves I worked hard at smoothing over. There have been footprints of jealousy, rage, anger, manipulation. These I sweep away with care and concern. I prefer to run my hands lovingly over the footprints of love, joy, happiness. I tuck these away in a safe corner of my heart. And I wonder…
What footprints have I left? I would like to say they were all light and happy. But I know better. While I have left many loving, happy footprints, I know there were times I left behind dark, heavy prints. It saddens me. I want to do better. I want my footprints to be light on the souls of others. I want them to have meaning, substance. When my energy flows into someone’s space, I want it to bring uplifting light.
It’s a goal, to be the best I can be. To practice love and compassion. To offer space for someone to just be.
I hope those who felt a heaviness from my steps can forgive me. I am a work in progress. Each day I strive to be better. Do better. Walk lightly. And I ask you, what footprints are you leaving?